Who wants to figure this life out and then next thing you know that its time to go. I walked today in the mid-Fall air of the Midwest. The concrete under my feet was soft. Soft concrete? Yes. I realize that all this time, God was that elevated carrier of my burdens and thoughts. And today was just that moment of reckoning. I had to find out its beauty of clarity again, why I am blessed to inhale and exhale life even in the mist of unraveling honesty. I took a ‘risk to be seen’ as said by actor Jim Carrey in one his motivational speaks. I was cool to be invisible but it hid my gift.
There is much that I want to shout in the Glory of this moment. I felt the momentum of ‘what next’….how are you going to ride this wave of inspiration to live fully if not today? How are you going to honor your son? How do you want to be seen? Whoa! Pause. I want to make it. Not for status nor power but to change someone outside finding my inside spiritual woman and to be remembered fondly. I want to say and proclaim more than “I made it this far….”
And the constant reminder of my wonderful patients that I visit with as hospice volunteer, you have more to do.
Gotta to believe in magic. That magic is sparkle in the pit of my belly. And guess what, I don’t need a wand when I already have the light of Love.